men in tights

having worked up to 12 hours a day last week and 8 hours on a saturday (damn you, advertising-job!) i didn't get to write about what i wanted to write about. now, some small things have gathered, but it being spring, i want to start of the new week with a fun topic, not a tough one.

i have seen on comedy central that there is a MTV competition show (they have the best and the worst, i figure), where men try to be elected the most attractive woman.

like most other women (i think) do, i enjoy watching men go through the motions, dressing up in drag... there is something intriguing (to me) about men in drag. i think it is the uncommon combination of difference and similarity; they are different from me, as they are men, but in women's clothes they are a representation of my own kind. closer to the cliché of my own kind than i am myself, even. far closer.

so, a man in drag is the extreme of both images: male and female. i guess, in a way, a man in drag represents the extreme of my ideals, the extreme of what i could wish to be. so virile in his core, yet so feminine in his appearance. both seems to attract me, and the combination even more so. it's not that i feel sexually aroused by men in drag, but they do strike a note in my heart.

(by the way, it's a dream for me once in my life to dress like a drag queen - to go so far beyond my usual femininity that people would think i must be a transvestite. drag queens - so colourful, so loud and proud. i think i could be the best of myself if i could dress up like a cock in a frock.)

so, about the TV program: i wonder. i wonder if there's a bad thing to it. if so, i can't think of it, at the moment. let me put it this way: the good thing about it is, the men taking part in the competition and the men that may be watching (i don't know if there are any, i wouldn't be surprised if it's only women) do see what a lot of women go through to look good for them - the shaving and waxing, the tight clothes and uncomfortable shoes, the looks and comments of others... the not-so-good thing about it is that these men have far more trouble to go through to look like women. a woman at least has the advantage that her body hair is already shaven , so it's not so long, she is used to high heels and straps and clips, used to make-up and long hair and bras and all that.

all in all, i guess it's showing that there is still a little movement left in the world. the discussion is not over.